Dear Supporters,
I write this with a heavy heart. I have decided after careful consideration and the support from leaders and my parents, I will not continuing to do the world race. I know this is probably going to come as a shock for all of you and I haven’t updated y’all so this is going to come out of the blue. I am sorry that I haven’t updated any of you until now. I have been wrestling with a lot and for the sake of my mental health and safety, I believe returning home is the best option for me in this season. I debated and struggled to come this design, thought that I could find another way, a way to hold off leaving until we got to South Africa but seeing as how my mental state is rapidly declining, its best to seek professional treatment back at home. I want to extended my most genuine apology for wasting your money. I know that I was suppose to finish the full 9 months and trust me, I did not anticipate at all leaving. I am continue to fight the guilt that fills me but I told that I must prioritize my health and I hope you can understand. I am sorry that I couldn’t finish. It breaks my heart into a million pieces that I could not waited out but I am learning how difficult it is to go against the storm inside your head. I am immensely grateful to you for giving me these past months. I have gotten to see SO much, laugh a lot, eat new foods, and develop incredible relationships. I have gotten the opportunity to travel and I wouldn’t have been in Cambodia if it wasn’t for your generosity and support. I hope that you can understand for I know that I have caused a lot of pain and I am sorry. I will take the rest of the year getting professionally treated and hope that I find some peace within that. I ask your encouragement and support, for I need them to feel any sort of peace about leaving this Race. Thank you for loving me through it all. Thank you World Race for these people that have shown so much kindness, love and care to me every minute these past months. It shatters my heart to leave them. Thank you again for your support and I hope you can understand my decision and support me in that.
With the world of love,
Remy
